It was a long weekend for me. Monday came around and it just felt dismal. It was even complete with rain clouds and gray skies. I went into class feeling like someone had hit me over the head with Thor’s hammer. It just felt like it was going to be just one of those days. My mythology teacher didn’t brighten my mood either. He was talking about how disappointed he was in everyone’s paper. I was just surprised that I didn’t get an F. Turns out that I just needed more context. When it rains it pours and I seriously need to start writing better papers. The teacher and a student acted out a scene in front of the class, and I think that helped lifted some spirits. My spirit was still a little off today. I swear my words were just pouring out sarcasm. I think the only saving grace is that I got to see one of the guys that I like. A situation that I myself am unsure about, but I guess we will just see where the pieces fall. It’s like every time I’m around him I have no idea what to say, or how to speak. It’s kind of sad really, but as I said a situation that I haven’t figured out just yet.
My dating life is almost non-existent. I have to sit there and watch my friends be about perfect with their relationships. They found people who are equally geeky and nerdy. I always think to myself, ‘Why can’t that be me?’ I long for something special like that. Oh well, we all can’t have everything and nothing really is ever perfect. I guess I should just be satisfied that I’m going to school.
I think I might take an art class in the fall…I do so dearly miss drawing.
Tip: thank goodness it’s a new week…. if the last week is in bad shape, can always hope that next week will be better.
It all tends to come in time. The more you want something the less it actually ends up coming to you. It's like the concept of chasing something--it runs because it's being chased.
ReplyDeleteMy best advice is this: just live. Wait for it to come to you.